It's been that long? Time flies, I don't know why I'm surprised, but it always has that effect on my mind.
Things for me have been good, but slow. I've been reading up and still practicing hypnosis. I am trying to get into helping those with psychological trauma, particularly those that have PTSD and victims of rape. I've been modifying a lot of cognitive-behavioral therapies and psychosensory therapies to effect in conjunction with hypnotic processes. So, far, I think I've been making some important breakthroughs.
That is exciting! Having you artwork able to be adored by many! I wish I was there to see it. Haha~ (seriously, I do). That is very awesome, Shaye. You should be proud!
I can understand why you would want to quit, probably for the best too. There is no sense in having to maintain a job that you don't enjoy, plus school first, yeah? Do you think you will be looking for another job in the near future or is the attention upon schoolwork at the moment?
And hey, releasing some pressure and stress is great! Especially by meditation, which I agree is very placid. It is good that you are doing so well. And remember, you can do whatever the hell you want, you have no limitations. Reach out and "carpe diem" as they say! Grounded?! Bad girl! You should know bett-.. Ah, who the hell I am kidding? Rules are meant to be broken now and again. (Fuck da' po-lice) >:3 How did you get grounded, well, I mean what did you do to get grounded?
Spring break, son! Mine starts March 25!
Seriously, I am so glad when spring hits because then I can start training more again! To be honest, I've gotten out of shape and I want to really get back into being healthy. I've started eating right again and I've been doing a lot of bodyweight conditioning and running more. I hope to be able to break my best cross country time since high school and generally have fun with learning flips.
Mmm.. Birthday is coming up soon, but that has never been notable thing for me..
I just finished mid-terms which was laughably easy. Sometimes I feel like I could be an intellectual genius if I cultivated my mind more seriously. I know that sounds pompous of me, but I just.. I mean the classes I take isn't easy stuff. My mum and dad took the same classes when they were in medical school and they had to study hours upon hours to get to the 90th percentile, and yet, here I am practically sleeping through these classes spending no more than 3 hours a week studying.. I don't know.. Maybe it is just because it is something I like doing and it just clicks.
Is there anything else....? Mmm..... Cats, hotdogs, zeppelins, markets, loot, vampires.....
Nope, I am trying to think.
Ah! Yes.
I was asked to participate in a board meeting at Yale University for one of their human sexuality research and awareness institutes. They want me to take an active role helping some people understand and research asexuality and romantic attraction. Normally, I'd say no, but I've gotten more active in being a spokesperson for the asexual community, plus what they are doing is good and I hope what I have to say and do will help someone else. Social change, what are you going to do, you know?
Other than that I've now gotten a significant other. Haha~ The same girl I've talked about before. Honestly, it is more "spiritual" than romantic.. Like a really really intensely deep platonic relationship. And while we aren't that big in calling each other "boyfriend" or "girlfriend" there is an emotional potency in knowing that we've reserved ourselves for each other. Life is like a box of chocolates, you never know what you are going to get. Looking back when I was in high school, I thought I didn't need love or should ever care about a relationship. Now that I see what it means, the happiness it can bring. I want to go back and slap myself in the face and say, "Hey, you're some sort of stupid. Grow up and look at the deeper things in life. Stop being so pessimistic. You think society is limiting you and so you have to be cold to everyone else? Nah, society MADE you like that, you are playing exactly into what it wants. You are the puppet, you just don't know it yet."
Life is life..